Monday, June 22, 2009

Lord, Save Me from Myself

I don't know where to begin. I know tonight has probably been one of the most boring nights I have had in awhile. I sat here wishing I had something to do, yet I couldn't think of anything. 

I watched Jon and Kate plus eight tonight. (either you are laughing at me or you watched it too). I had gotten into the show about an two years ago before it had gotten big and while Jon and Kate were still happy. I have just about watched every episode and I enjoyed spending my Monday evenings with that family of eight kids that somehow made me smile. I don't know how a family I never had  met before could make so happy. The kids were so cute and it was exciting to see them grow up. 

What really got me was how much faith this family had in God. After finding out they were having sextuplets, they said they didn't know if they would make it on a daily basis. They didn't know how they would put food on the table and be able to take care of their eight children, but they put their trust in God and He provided for them (watch the early episodes). Now, somewhere along the way they slipped up (just like we all do) and it seems like they have forgotten about the One who has provided for them and now are trusting in the show to give them what they need (yet I haven't met them so who knows for sure). We all do this, I know I do, sometimes we put our trust and faith in people instead of God and when those people let us down we don't know where to go from there and we don't know who we can trust. The only difference between this happening to us and Jon and Kate is they have to battle it out on a TV show. Yes, I know that they choose to do the show but honestly would you say no to the opportunity to have your own show.. I don't think I would say no. They probably didn't think of how well the show would do and it took a few years for it to be really popular. I don't really know where I am going with this.. I just feel like we all have the same battles just at different times and ways. We shouldn't be bashing this family and saying 'I knew this was going to happen' but yet lift this family up in their time of need, we all need that at some point. This isn't just with Jon and Kate but our friends, family, co-workers, people we see on a daily basis.  I hope this somewhat makes sense.

Anyway, tonight's episode was a special one hour show with a big announcement at the end. Take a wild guess what it was. Yep.. a divorce. I seriously keep hoping it wasn't going to be that. I thought this family was strong enough and had enough trust in God to overcome this. Guess I was wrong.. and I guess I had put to much trust into this one family. 

They kept saying how complicated it all was. Yes, somewhat it may be but I realized something pretty important from it all.. life is simple. We make life into this complicated mess on a daily business. God intended for us to live a simple life by worshiping and praising Him and to not be conformed to this world. It's simple live for Him. If we are focused on Christ nothing else matters. Not our food, relationships, clothing, the list goes on. I can't make it any clearer to myself. 

On the older hand, I got a wonderful phone call tonight. It was great to  catch up and I hope you know I miss you. 
I need to hear more friendly voices. Phone calls would be much needed/wonderful. :)

Praying that God would speak to me through this. 

"When all I have in on the floor 
divided, divided. 
When I'm a world away from peace 
behind Your eyes is where I know 
I'll find it, I'll find it. 
'Cause who You are defines my dreams. 
You already take me there. Heaven in the here and now. 
When I'm a broken hearted man 
complacent and tired. 
When I've been knocked out of the race 
I've been a fool for long enough 
to fight it, to fight it. 
It's in Your arms I find my place. 
You meet me where I am. Forgive me where I am 
Where I lose myself in grace, I wanna lose myself in grace. 
Let Your love reign down all over me cover me." 

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