semester six

If i could have only have known the hurt, confusion, and tears this semester would bring me, i would have done it all differently. but i can't. now, i'm learning that my choices continuously affect my future. 


i think we confuse God's plans and timing with what we think is God's plans and timing.  their is a big difference.  i think we convince ourselves that what we want is all part of God's plan, when in fact it really isn't. we want what is best and what brings us joy, but i think  we selfishly do what we want and consider it part of God's plans for us. i believe that a lot of this has been going on lately, i know i do the same thing too.


recently, i have felt a lot of guilt. guilt of things i had control over and even of things i didn't. i blame myself for a lot of things and in this one situation, i can't help but blame myself.  i feel like my actions could have change the outcome.  even though one-hundred percent of it wasn't my fault, i still take the blame like it is. 


in need of a fresh start. in every way that's possible. 


all the poor and powerless
and all the lost and lonely
all the thieves will confess 
and know that You are holy
will know that You are holy
all will sing out, Hallelujah
we will cry out, hallelujah 
all the hearts who are content
and all who feel unworthy
all the hurt with nothing left
will know that You are holy
all will sing out, Hallelujah 
we will cry out, Hallelujah
shout it, go on and scream if from the mountains
go on and tell it to the masses
that He is God
we will sing out, Hallelujah
we will cry out, Hallelujah