it's a brand new day

The feeling you get when you overcome your fear is pretty incredible. If I had known it felt like this, maybe I would have done it a long time ago. I still have to talk to my dad about it, which is what I was originally scared of... but now, I feel a sense of peace about it. Talking to my dad won't be easy, he wants me home over the summer (can you blame him... I am a pretty awesome person. hehe.) but now I think he will be understanding about the whole situation.

I have a real problem with appreciation. I feel the need to be appreciated by the people (well.. person) I constantly help. I dropped everything I am doing for her (most of the time) and usually it's over something dumb. I'm the one who she calls when she is upset and then when she is happy she wants nothing to do with me. When she is happy she much rather hang out with her another friends. Last night, she was a complete jerk and talked crap about a really good friend of mine. Then, she wanted to apologize over text, and went off about things I didn't even say. Honestly, I don't want to be friends with her anymore. I am done, we will never be best friends and right now, even friends is a stretch for me. But like I told her Christ calls us to love everyone, and that includes me loving her. Easier said then done. Working on loving and appreciation.

I am going to confront her about how she does treat me. I am going with some other friends. Of course, she will turn into way bigger then it has to be. I am worried that I will get there and just fall apart and not say what I need to say. Part of the whole fear thing.

Spring Break will be really nice. Two more days of classes. Today will be a productive day, and tomorrow will consist of packing.

I love Chick-fil-A. I decided since I have coupons to come get some breakfast and just enjoy people watching along with doing some homework. A nice lady just came up and gave me some chicken minis. Does she realize how much she made my day?

You know what I love even more, my friends. They are incredible. I really don't deserve at all. God has blessed me more then I could ever have imagine.

"Shine on, shine on
And on to something new
It's long and overdue
I will remember you"

in repair

It's one of those days that I have to apply what I have been learning. It hasn't been the easiest day. I missed both of my morning classes (overslept) and while sleeping sounds good, I really needed to be in class. I decided to finally get myself out of bed and study for my lab test, and let's just say that wasn't the best test I have taken. I easily could say this a bad day (and with the rain that makes it a extra bonus.) But I can't do that. I cannot based my days on my emotions. Emotions aren't bad. But can you imagine what the world would be like if we based everything on our emotions. (side thought.) God gives us each day so how can that be bad. We should be thankful. I learn so much more through these days then other days. This is something I constantly have to remind myself about.

I am looking forward to the next couple of weeks. Got some big things coming up and really excited to see how God works through them.

One thing I am trying to do better of is sharing Christ's love in the daily things I do. It's a work in process for me.

I am also trying to do better about letting the little things go. I don't really know why I let things get to me and why I can't let it go. It's been like that as long as I can remember. But it's something I am working on.

How God works is simply amazing. Today, I just needed some good friends to talk to, even if it wasn't a deep conversation. Not only did he give me one but four. I mean, I talked to more then four people, but these four people randomly talked to me and said things that just really brighten my day. Random messages are awesome either if it's reminding someone you love them or asking what they need prayer for. It's something I need to work on doing for others.